Asshole Wife. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Nearly killed the husband.

I get easily annoyed when people asking me the same thing over and over again. Especially I’ve said “I don’t know, you should ask the relevant people not me.” Yet, he won’t stop asking even hearing me said. I snapped. Holy mother of god! I get so so so annoyed! And I asked him why? Why I already said I don’t know, and he still ask? He was like I thought you know.

LIKE FUCKING SERIOUSLY. DID YOU NOT HEAR WHAT THE FUCK I JUST SAID? I DON’T FUCKING KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You thought he would felt hurt after me screaming?

Oh hell no! He is laughing because I’m mad. What the fuck is wrong with the man?

I do feel bad for screaming at him. I mean, I wouldn’t want him to scream at me. But dude, stop being so annoying? Like can you feel how I feel? When people already said don’t know, I’ll stop asking the question already.

I know I have to be patient. But how? People always said that I am short tempered, I blew up easily… Can you imagine what kind of person I am dealing with? I really could stab someone right now. #dayrepregnancy

@Infinityplusone this post is specially dedicated to you.

I felt like shit now. Asshole wife.

My vermicelli which I’m not expecting to look like this. #dayrefatties

I am affected. Damn it hormones. I felt like shit, so I texted him right away. I think I was emotional I wanted to cry because he still can laugh about it even I’m so fierce.

Damn this guy playing with my mood?

Randomly asking him if he wants anything from L’OCCITANE in the midst of anger. LOL.

This is another story to share < The Unglamorous Pregnancy – Body Odor >

Calming myself with frozen yogurt and fruits. I was the Nutella fans okay. I always get the small size, pairing with Nutella only. But every Wednesday Ilao Ilao is giving discount based on the numbers of the week. So I get 11% off this time.

Tasted so good! My mood has been lighted up after the first bite. Haha.

So much better now. 😇

How do you deal with colleague who’s always take you for granted?

I don’t mind being the driver, I don’t mind paying tolls, but at least contribute for parking ticket maybe?

So, we went for lunch together most of the time. There’s one of my colleague who’s always not contributing where others will just pull out money to pay for parking automatically. Depends on who’s driving.

Today, colleague A decided to kinda “voice out” regarding of this matter. But you know what?

She doesn’t even care.

I never see her pay for anything. In the group, we sometimes pay for each other’s drink. Not the super fancy kind la. Like mamak stall. She didn’t say anything. Others would say thank you and pay for another round.

I got quite annoyed by her action.

Isn’t this the most common social etiquette?

She sees everyone pull out money for ticket, but she never did that. Wtf?

Am I the fussy one?

Have to have this every night.

Hahahahha. What the fuck! #tanmomo_ you grow so big!

I think I want a warm milk before sleep cause I’m hungry.

The second day

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pre Wedding Shoot

We’ve spent RM8k for the pre-wedding photoshoot, this is somehow a very common thing every soon-to-be married couple do. We did the pre wedding shoot, and use these photos on the actual day.

Picking up dresses and deciding is pain in the ass. But, we get to negotiate a deal for shooting a family portrait.

Some behind the scene taken by my brother-in-law:

Final Outcome:

p/s: the photo was only ready after 3 months of waiting.

The ROM

Everything looks so beautiful here. But you know what happen before this? War. I have been fighting with him almost everything about delaying the ROM because of my parents. He insisted to get it done. Well, to be fair. I wanted to get it done myself but I want to delay because of my parent’s will. Get it? I personally didn’t want anything to delay. I want the reception to delay because I don’t want to spend their money. LOL

Well, I told my parents that the wedding reception has been delay or cancel. Replacing it with our travel wedding. We are going to somewhere in two years time. They were saying why delay that when you are still getting the paper sign? Why not delay that as well? And I didn’t say anything after that, cause I knew it’s pointless to say it and no matter how legit my reason is, they won’t buy it. (I literally just inform them.) This is not a good move. This is bad. Because we don’t discuss, I decide everything myself which makes things worst. So bad I want everything to start over. I am worried that I will have depression seriously. I have been worrying so much about shit like this. 

The Registration Of Marriage was held in the Kompleks Kementerian Dalam Negeri Kuala Lumpur at Jalan Duta. It was very nice. We didn’t expected a big spacious venue to began with. But everything inside was romantic, clean, sweet and blessing. I have my best friends and my brother. John has his best friend and his family. Well, I was sad and he knew it. He couldn’t do anything but to promise to love me so much to comfort me. I am so touch that all my bestie applied their half day leave to attend the ceremony and I really really am grateful for that. What’s more to ask for?

John kept on praising me which makes me blush. Haha. He did that when I attend Vince’s wedding and I thought he is really sweet. Hearing it with my own ears make it sweeter. Hubby is being romantic. 

Our family. 

Our besties!

May I present Mr and Mrs Tan

The Proposal

Yes, after almost 5 years of being together he proposed. Well, our plan was actually another 3 years. But the elderly in the house was saying why not we tied the knot first. I disagreed. Knowing what will happen in my side of family, I said we shall wait. Yet, my heart is hesitating. I wanted to be with this guy, he is a loving person. Maybe he is a little selfish listening to his uncle about our future, but still, this means responsibilities. 

So, I discuss with my parent (that was the original plan, but one of them absent because of not accepting the fact.). You know there’s always miscommunication going around… So that happen. After the discussion, one of my parent said “go do what need to be done.” I thought that was the green light. But NOPE! 

The thing is, when I heard the “go do what need to be done…” I quickly announce to John and his family. Immediately, they secure a date for the wedding ceremony. Like so fast. Then, you know… Shit happens. By the time John’s parents wanted to go see mine, my parents was like “there’s nothing much to talk about since his side of family and you already decided when and where is going to happen.” 

I gotta admit that, this is totally my fault. I made this and let this happen. But, things has been done. Payment had been made for bridal shooting. What else I can do? John has been stressing about all these and he desperately wanting to visit my parents after everything. I stop him. I don’t know what I am afraid of. But I stop him. 

Then, he proposed. I was having the thought of breaking up because it’s stressful and I don’t think I can handle that anymore. I said yes. 

Sigh… It was supposed to be a cheerful and happy moment. But all I was thinking was my parents. They were very upset because I did not live my life according to what they are planning. 

Marrying young is not a crime. But the thing is, I doesn’t even have a job. That’s why they were pissed. They are still pissed. I’m still going for job interviews. Trying my best to get a job I like and can support both of us. 

I don’t hate anyone. I am just upset for having family problems like this. 

Anyways, John manage to plan the proposal surprise without me notice. But I did suspect for a few times when his sister talk to me. On that day, it was not my best day. I was sick, and stress about the parents. I was throwing all my temper to him. I cried so hard cause I felt bad. Not only feeling bad for giving him shits, also felt bad for my parents because I couldn’t stood up for them. I love this man too much I couldn’t say no. Sometimes, love is really blind to make you to make a decision you know you will hurt the one who love you the most. 

John said trust him. Give him time. At the age of 28, he got no mountains of gold and silver, no rich dad who can let him live his life easier. He only have the heart to make it work. He needs support from the love one. Go through the tough time and live the life after he had fight for when he has nothing at all. 

I said yes. To stand by him, support him, trust him. I was living a very easy life, I don’t have to fight for what I want. I can just ask and I’ll have it. After I said yes, I know I will need to bare with what I couldn’t have. I am insecure, worrying that I will never ever going live that kind of easy life again. I see that coming. That life that will change a person, good or bad, no one knows. 

I choose John because of love and believe. 

I love my parents. No matter what they said, I can’t be mad at them forever. 

What?!

Yes, the title is nothing. No, nothing special happen except my tummy is growling at this hour. John has been expecting my post for days. I have been looking for school and busy applying in the same time. Looking for the perfect person to write me a reference letter for me to apply to the dream school. I wanted to go to USA badly. Sudden thoughts though, cause I see everyone around me having a good result of their own life but I’m not yet achieve anything. That’s driving me insane. Yes, fight with mom as usual. I don’t know what’s going on with me cause I seems to loose my patient on her. I always the patient one and bare with everything. I am curious about myself. 

Been hanging out with John’s family recently and yes, I think I kinda find the new me. I told his sister that I wanted to have a pet, but then, I’m not really want to want it cause I don’t want to settle down yet. Yes, I want to have a family but no, I’m not ready yet. These kind of questions are all over me now and it’s funny cause I’m not really the one who should think about all these. I always know that the settle down kind of topic is the topic that John trying to avoid. I know. And yet I purposely talk about this topic every time just to see his reaction. From his reaction, I can feel something, something that I don’t really like but force to accept. 

Anyways, the school searching and applying is making me very nervous. I wanted to get in ASAP. Well, I thought I’m okay to study anywhere in USA with any subject that related to fashion but I was wrong. I thought that I just want to escape from the old place. But I was god damn it wrong. I want to go to my favorite place and study what I like. My final decision is FIDM, it’s just the location matter. It’s either Orange County, Los Angeles or Hollywood. Well, my choice is Los Angeles, but the parents want me to pick Orange County cause it’s nearer from home. I hope everything goes well. I’m preparing all the documents and portfolio and going to send out soon. Please let me get the visa and leave!!!

Oh Hi November!

不知不觉，毕业了一个多月。学校的事情还在处理。心里还是三心两意，拿不定主意。亲爱的J先生对于我的这种态度很不满。他说，我过于关心别的事物忽略了自己。是吗？是吧。

I always wanted to go to USA. No matter what I do, I wanted to live there for a little while. I guess, no matter how much I consider, I will always choose to go USA. Mom was pissed that I told her I might want to stay back here to study. Well, the boyfie’s family was quite positive about me staying back, but to be honest, I really want to go out and see the world. I’m really glad that John is the supportive one and care about my future. Yes, there’s a lot of time that we will missed out, I especially hate the moment like John got into an accident but I’m not with him. This kills me. I wanted to be by his side, but this is what we need to face right now, isn’t it? 

Today I went to have dinner with John’s family. Well, it’s not really good. Food were too spicy and I can’t take it. Smell really bad on us after the meal and then the car smell bad also. Luckily I had some fruits before I came out to meet them. It was a pleasant night. Went back to John’s house and chat with his sister. Well, gossip a little bit. We kept the tone low, but somehow at the end we doesn’t care about if others can hear us anymore. Just talk and laugh out loud. I know gossipping is not a good behaviour, I’m trying to make it as less as possible. But sometimes, I couldn’t help but talk about it. Yes, it’s not a good thing to do to throw our negative energy to our listeners, try to control the tone next time. LOL.

I miss John a lot. Sometimes I will post some emo post on Facebook, and somehow he will think that I’m talking about him. But sometimes, these kind of posts are just the things I want to share, not specifically talking about him. On October, we had great moments. I came back from Taiwan on 10 Oct and he brought me a lot of memorable moment. I’m glad that we can go through all of these moments together. You mean the most to me. I’m not a patient person, I am bad tempered and will make a huge explosion when I’m pissed off. I am sensitive (but compare to you I’m less sensitive), I love my family (just like you) maybe I’m a little over protective towards my mom or whatever you name me. The [MOM] thing is always our topic to fight. But, hmmm.. I guess we have to step back and calm down a little bit. Ok, I’m not exactly the good girlfriend but thank you for always being there for me. I’m glad that I can always have a good time with your family and I’m so thankful that we have such a great relationship among each others. 

All I want to say is, nobody is perfect. Take it or leave it.